I'm tired....

I'm on the vacation of a lifetime at an all inclusive resort in Jamaica with the love of my life and life currently could not be better...or so it would seem. Truth is...I'm tired. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being out of shape. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of being the biggest guy in the room. I'm tired of thinking one day I'll change. I'm tired of having trouble bending over and picking up dog poop. I'm tired of wanting change. I'm tired of always being hungry. I'm tired of being called 'big guy'. I'm tired of making jokes about it. I'm tired of being ashamed. I'm tired of thinking that I'm an embarrassment to my wife and kids. I'm tired of being on medication. I'm tired of finding clothes that will fit. I'm. Just. Tired. Tired of it all. If I don't change now, I never will. So that brings me here. I'm documenting my journey to changing my life. It won't be easy but I'm strong and have an amazing support system so I know I can do this. I can't do this alone. I truly believe it will take the support of my family, friends as well as some spiritual support to keep my positive and on the right track. I have a plan and it isn't a quick fix. It is going to require a series of small changes that will make a bigger impact across a long timeline. I don't know if I will ever make this blog public... who knows it might just die with me. I just want something to put my thoughts, struggles, achievements and frustrations down in writing.